Today marks a year ago that our world was turned upside
down. Thinking back I can still remember
the emotions I felt; the emptiness, the helplessness, the complete devastation. The perfect healthy child I was carrying for
37 weeks was all of a sudden missing half of his heart?! How was this missed? I remember coming home
and staring at the wall just crying. I
wanted to wake up, after all this was a nightmare, it was not real. I remember
thinking back on every single thing I had done during my pregnancy, was it something
I did? Was it something I had done in my
life and I was being punished? Why us,
why my baby boy? The whys set is, and the research started. The joy we were supposed
to feel was gone, no longer did we feel happiness, we felt sadness, fear, and
were just numb. It was the day that
would forever change my life. I never
would have imagined one of the worst days would turn out to give us such a
blessing. I thought God had left me
alone and that He was punishing me. God
only gave me a trial that made me realize how strong HE could make me. What a difference a year makes…….
November 12, 2012
November 12, 2013
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